stuperbowl

i was reading an article on espn with donovan's thoughts on this past season about TO and shit, and it was comparing his interview this week, from the pre-superbowl frenzy of last year, oh what 12 months can change. and then i walked into the living room and started paging through the movies on tv, and stopped on Hitch. this threw me into some kind of retrospective about where i was 12 months ago. superbowl weekend last year ended up being one of the worst weekends of my life, i went up to maritime saturday night to hang out with my then boyfriend, john. somewhere around 11pm we decided i should spend the night, instead of trekking back to manhattan that late. that was mistake number one. a few more hours and a chest full of hickies later, john had to go out on watch (i still don't really know what that means, its some maritime thing) and i was left laying in his bed chatting with his roommate. the rest is pretty historically sleazy, and when i went back to manhattan on sunday i spent most of the subway ride home nauseous and in tears. i remember running into noah on the street, and telling him i had a bad night, and he gave me a hug, man noah was/is a really cool kid. i went up to the apartment and showered, and was in a sleepy sickness for most of the day. phone calls and fights online ended my relationship with john pretty much entirely that night, and i fell asleep during the eagles losing the superbowl. two weeks later i was already talking to another guy, and we went on our first date, on fucking valentines day, but we decided that it was just monday, and no big deal. we went to see hitch. and in continuation to my aforementioned sleaziness, i don't really remember much of the movie. fucking mike. considering it took me months to stop talking to him completely, because i just had to let him keep emotionally abusing me. so here i am. its 2006, and my life isn't really going anywhere, but at least i'm not making the same mistakes i was making a year ago, now i'm making ones that may fuck up my future in the long run, but oh well. this year i'm not even really planning on watching the superbowl, because i don't really care. and as for hitch...its not a bad movie, when you actually watch it.