mostly misery

i can't sleep in anymore
not past 10:30 in over a week.
listening to death cab, because i randomly came across a song i had that erik sent me ages ago and decided i really like it...downloaded more.
not trying hard enough to just be okay.
easier to just die inside.
on the up side...
ben and jerry's brought back dublin mudslide
a favorite of last summer.
missing rachel.
and other people.
disturbing dream...so many people in it...people i haven't seen in ages...
no one around to hang out with...
writing a letter with a calligraphy pen
one that i most likely won't send.
phils won yesterday...and those bosox kicked some yankee ass...
why isn't that enough?
i miss the ams...bordo...angelica...corn boy...
wish i had a car
a job
a future
a friend...