It's All in Your Head

the last release from eve 6, summer of 03. i have like 3 or 4 songs off that album shuffling on my ipod currently, and i was playing them on my way home from another awful night at work tonight. i can't say i remember the day i purchased every cd i have, because i have a few hundred, and there's no way that's even possible. but i bought it's all in your head by eve 6 on august 25, 2003. i also bought the newest dashboard cd and a top up card for my virgin mobile cell phone, all with early birthday money. i think i remember everything from that day, which is why in my already depressed state of my walk home (i had to train with alex tonight, and he was a super super jerk to me, and it was a waste of my time completely) i was thinking about the day i bought that cd. its a hard day to forget, the one where you lose your virginity. i couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. dominoes chicken kickers and apple shampoo. and then i just started crying and couldn't stop. because almost three years later i'm being told what to do by some asshole 17 year old kid and i'm no where near on track to becoming the person i'm supposed to be. and i'm no where near letting go of the events that passed a little over a month after august 25. i know you don't want to read this, you don't want to hear it all again, and i can't believe i'm writing it again, but its been that kind of week, that kind of month, that kind of year so far. go read hairshirt and laugh, because i have nothing entertaining to say, the only glimmer of hope i have to save this week is that i'm going to call carmen tomorrow and tell her that i have to train with alex tomorrow i'm not coming in, and if she doesn't move me to a more tolerable position i'm going to the phillies game, because my dad is going to the soul game across the parking lot. and baseball is the only thing that i'll ever let save my soul.

forever...or until the phillies win the series